1.08 – Limbo

A/N: This chapter is a bit text heavy (at least the first part), but I hope you guys enjoy it anyway! :) There’s a bit of swearing in this one.

Edit: Oops, I forgot to mention!! Travis Rain belongs to the wonderful orangeplumbob! Sorry, I forgot to add that before. XD

The memories are vague now, like trying to keep water in cupped hands. They slip through my fingers like sand, but I struggle to hold them firm in my mind, to get them down on the page. I must write down everything that passed, otherwise nothing will ever be right again. It’s the goal I’ve set myself.

When I was younger, I set myself many goals. If I cleaned the dishes by five, my father wouldn’t drink that night. If I ran up and down the stairs from the lobby ten times, he would remember my birthday. If I stayed up past midnight, he would still be alive. I never let myself win though; I never let myself beat my goal. If I lost, I couldn’t be disappointed when the things I’d promised myself didn’t happen.

But this time – this time I will meet my goal.

If I tell the truth, Susie will forgive me.

This time, things will be right again.

As the sound of the gunshot faded away, I expected to feel pain. I expected to be knocked off my feet, to lie bleeding on the cold concrete until someone came to check my body. I expected to die.

But none of those things happened, and I slowly came to realise that no one had shot at me. The unnatural silence of the night in the wake of the gunshot sent a shiver through me as the knowledge I was desperately trying to keep out slowly seeped in.

The gunshot had come from inside the house.

Susie. Jamie.

My family were in danger.

Without stopping to think, I ran towards the house. The door banged in the wind. I skidded to a halt before the threshold, fully expecting to come face to face with the cold muzzle of a gun.

Instead, nothing.

I took a deep breath and stepped into my house.

The first thing I saw was Susie, curled on the ground with her arms yanked and lashed behind her back. Her mouth was covered with duct tape, her cheeks stained with fresh tears. I made a movement towards her, but stopped myself, my heart pounding.

Susie saw me. Her eyes widened and she made a slight jerking movement with her head.

Get out of here.

I shook my head in return. I couldn’t – wouldn’t – leave, even if it was the most sensible thing to do.

“Don’t even think about moving,” a calm, smooth voice said suddenly, and the hair stood up on the back of my neck. “I have men outside, and they will shoot to kill.”

I had the feeling he was bluffing, but, if he wasn’t… well, I was no use to anyone dead.

I slid my eyes across and saw Jamie – thankfully still alive! – huddled on the floor with his head in his hands. Two smoking bullet holes had appeared in the wall either side of his head. His thin frame shook violently.

The man was pointing the gun at him, his finger poised on the trigger.

“Now where were we?” He paused. “Oh, yes… We were deciding which part of you I was going to shoot first.”

“Just kill me, you bastard!” Jamie spat out, but his voice trembled.

I could see the tears and sweat glistening on his skin. Anger pulsed through me. I wanted to run and knock the gun out of the man’s hand, but my feet were frozen to the floorboards. Despite the anger, I was too frightened to move. I was too frightened to even breathe.

The man chuckled.

“Oh, I don’t think so, Jamie. You still have a lot of debt to pay.”

Suddenly, his identity fell into place in my mind, a figure from Jamie’s past sprung to life from the pages of my diary.

“Claude,” I whispered. The men he had threatened were stationed outside were starting to seem less and less like a bluff.

The man twitched slightly at the sound of his name, but he continued on as though I hadn’t spoken.

“I’m going to fuck you raw before I even think of killing you. What do you think, slut?”

At that moment, the door slammed shut with a loud bang. Everyone jumped and Claude’s finger tightened reflexively on the trigger. A second later, Jamie let out a long, loud wail of pain and I felt my heart turn to ice.

There was a breath of silence, and then a slow bead of blood trickled down Jamie’s face like a tear.

“Only a graze,” Claude muttered. “Good.”

Sudden relief washed through me and, riding on the adrenaline high, I could take it no longer.

“Leave my son alone.”

Claude smiled and turned to face me.

“Oh, you bite, do you? And you call yourself his father?” His eyes looked me slowly up and down. “Bit young, aren’t you? What are you, eighteen?”

“Nineteen,” I ground out between clenched teeth, acutely aware of Jamie’s ragged sobs.

Claude smiled as he reloaded his gun.

“Really? Well… unless you were a particularly fertile three year old, I don’t see how you could be his father.”

My chest felt tight, but I didn’t back down. Words tumbled over each other in my hurry to speak.

“He’s legally my son, and this is my house, so get out. Right now.”

Claude cocked his gun with a smile.

“Or you’ll do what? Unless you missed it, I’m the one with the gun.”

“I’ve called the police,” I lied, grasping at straws. “They’ll be here any minute now.”

Claude laughed and aimed the gun at my chest.

“Do you really think the police can help you? By the time anyone gets here, you and your little whore over there will be dead, and Jamie and myself will be long gone.”

I clenched my fists, hot rage boiling up in my stomach.

“Don’t talk about my wife like that.”

Claude smirked.

“Your wife? Well, that changes everything. Perhaps we should take her along for the ride, hm?”

I wanted to lunge at him, to wipe that self-satisfied smile right off his face, but the gun held me back. I would barely have time to take one step before he shot me, and then Susie and Jamie would be at his mercy.

For as long as I kept him talking, kept his attention on me, my family would be safe.

“Is this what gets you off, Claude?” I asked softly, my voice amazingly steady (inside I was shaking like a leaf). “Frightening people who can’t defend themselves?”

I flinched as Claude clicked the safety off on his gun.

“Do you really think it’s a good idea to be baiting me?” He laughed softly. “You’re watching, right, Jamie? You wouldn’t want to miss your father’s last breath.”

Now, Jamie hadn’t been completely idle whilst Claude was gloating. Despite the fact that the wound on his head was obviously bothering him and the fact he could barely control his shaking body, he had forced himself to his feet and was edging inch by trembling inch towards his bedroom door. I can only imagine that he was planning on barricading himself in there and phoning the police – he knew me well enough to know that I would never have done so.

Unfortunately, as his hand reached slowly towards the handle, I noticed his movement out of the corner of my eye and flicked my gaze towards him. Claude noticed the involuntary movement and suddenly his gun was pointed at Jamie again.

“Are you trying to escape, Mr Kelly?” Claude said, his tone evidently amused. “Tut tut, that will never do.”

I wondered, for a brief moment, if Claude actually had the balls to kill. He seemed to spend a lot of time talking about killing and, though he had fired his gun, it hadn’t been with the intention of murder. But then, being the only one actually armed and probably having realised I was bluffing about the police, he could afford to take his sweet time to toy with us, to exert his power.

Besides, if the bulge in his trousers was anything to go by, he was seriously getting off on how frightened Jamie was right then.

“You’re more trouble than you’re worth.”

At that moment, his whole stance changed. His arm steadied. His eyes morphed from faint amusement to steely determination.

“I can always fuck your corpse.”

Jamie shrank against the wall, blinking blood out of his eyes as he stared at the barrel of the gun. All the colour had drained from his face. His hands clutched the doorframe, as though he was desperately trying not to pass out. When he spoke, though, his voice was steady.

“Just do it, you coward.”

Claude smiled one last time.

“Goodbye, Jamie Kelly.”

I don’t remember moving. All of a sudden, my body was crashing into Jamie’s, and the momentum from my sprint across the room was knocking both of us to the floor.

BANG!

We crashed to the floor a moment after the gunshot rang out. I felt the air rush out of Jamie’s body, underneath mine, and heard the air rush out of my own (or perhaps it was the other way around) and, for a moment at least, it seemed as though neither of us had been hurt. I could hear Susie’s muffled screaming from where I lay and tried to move, wanting to show her I was okay. But the moment I rolled off Jamie’s body, pain – hot coiling agony – ripped through my stomach. A cry of pain tore itself from my throat and I slowly became aware that my shirt was rapidly becoming warm and damp.

The next thing I noticed was Jamie clinging tightly to my hand.

“Gabe! Gabe, no!”

I levered myself onto my elbow, gritting my teeth as a fresh wave of pain shot through me.

“It’s nothing,” I managed.

Even now I’m not sure why I said that. It certainly wasn’t nothing. In fact, at that moment, I remember thinking that none of us would get out of there alive.

That was certainly Claude’s intention.

“Last chance to say goodbye, Jamie.”

What happened next is hazy in my memory at best. But what I do remember is this.

Jamie, my brave, reckless Jamie, mustered his courage and jumped to his feet. He stumbled over my body and rushed towards Claude.

All that came after was a single gunshot.

***

After that, I remember sirens and being in Susie’s arms.

“Hold on, Gabe, Lucas – Gabriel! Please, Gabe… an ambulance is on its way. Don’t die on me.”

Her hand stroked my cheek, but I barely had the strength left to open my eyes. Everything felt cold, apart from the isolated areas where Susie’s body touched mine. Stupidly, all I could think of was telling her the truth.

“Let me die,” I mumbled. “I – I’m stupid…”

“No, no,” Susie whispered tearfully, still caressing my cheek, still trying to keep me awake. “You’re not stupid. All that stuff before… it doesn’t matter right now, Gabe. Just hold on.”

“N-no.” I couldn’t feel my legs, which was distracting, but I knew I had to tell Susie what had happened. I had to tell her before the moment passed and I lost all courage. Perhaps before I lost my life. “I… I slept with K-Kami.”

Susie’s hand froze on my cheek.

“Wh-what? What do you mean?”

“M-met her in town. She wore towel… wanted to – to forget…”

And then, I remember blackness.

***

This next part is included because it was so strange, so real, that leaving it out would feel like lying by omission. And I want to tell the whole truth, as strange as this part of it may be.

I woke up in an unfamiliar place, no longer in pain. Trees and green hills spread into the distance as far as the eye could see and, at this point, I was pretty sure I was dead.

At a loss of what else to do, I started to walk.

Presently, I came across a lake and large waterfall, where Jamie was fishing. But it wasn’t Jamie. I mean, it looked like Jamie, but he felt wrong. Different. He was wearing different clothes than I was used to, and the way he held himself was more confident. More… I don’t know, it’s hard to describe.

It was then I remembered that I was probably dead, and an odd thought floated across the surface of my mind.

Could this be… Arthur?

Not sure what else to do, I approached, step by cautious step.

“I was wondering when you’d show up,” he said, without taking his eyes off the lure floating out in the middle of the lake.

“You… were?”

Jamie – or, rather, Arthur – gave me a smile.

“Fish with me.”

It was then I noticed that I was holding a fishing rod, when I had definitely not been holding one before. I was so startled that I almost dropped it, but, after gathering myself, I nodded and cast my line.

We stood in silence for what seemed like hours. Nothing bit or tugged on the line, though I could see plenty of fish swimming around just under the surface. It was peaceful, as though we had all the time in the world.

Perhaps we did.

Eventually, though, I remembered how I had ended up there (wherever it was) in the first place, and sudden questions rose up inside me like burning flames.

“Am I dead?”

He smiled and shook his head, his eyes fixed on the water in front of us.

“Not yet.”

“Are you… are you Arthur?”

“I’m the imprint Arthur left behind, or, at least, your perception of it.”

“Er… I have no idea what that means.”

He laughed at that, and I wished I was back home with Jamie, hearing him laugh.

“For all intents and purposes, I am Arthur.”

“You could have just said ‘yes’, you know… I didn’t finish school.”

“Doesn’t mean you’re stupid.”

“I feel stupid,” I admitted. When he didn’t reply, I looked around again – the sun hadn’t moved from where it hung in the sky. “What is this place?”

“I guess you could call it limbo.”

“Limbo?”

“The space between life and death. It’s where you come when you’re not ready to move on.”

“So… I am dead?”

“No, you still have a chance to turn back. In the real world, they’re trying to bring you back. You know, with all the fancy hospital equipment and hours in an operating theatre. You just have to let them.”

I thought of Susie, and how I had betrayed her. My stomach twisted painfully.

“What if I don’t want to go back?”

“Then you don’t go back. You move on, and you leave everyone behind.”

Something occured to me, then, and I realised Arthur’s smile wasn’t as genuine as it had first appeared.

“Why are you here? Why haven’t you moved on?”

“Jamie,” Arthur said simply.

Ah, of course.

“Come with me,” Arthur said after a moment, and I suddenly realised that he was no longer standing beside me, but in the middle of the lake.

I stared.

“I can’t swim.”

Arthur smiled.

“No need to swim, just walk.”

“Nuh uh, no way. That’s not natural.”

I may have been in limbo, but I was completely unprepared to believe that I could walk on water.

“This is the only way you’ll get home.”

At that moment, I wasn’t sure that I wanted to go home. Would it be easier for everyone if I just… let go? Susie and Jamie would no longer have to deal with the consequences of my murder of James Frank, and Jamie would have a perfectly good life with Susie, who was now legally his stepmother. My contract with Doo Peas would never have to come to pass.

But, perhaps I wasn’t as selfless as all that.

Perhaps I was simply too afraid to go back and face the consequences of my night with Kami.

Was I just a coward?

It was with this in mind that I took my first few tentative steps out onto the water. It was the most bizarre experience, like walking on jelly, although my feet didn’t sink. Several times during those first few steps I wobbled perilously and it was a miracle that I didn’t fall over.

Arthur watched me struggle impassively and, when I finally managed to stand up straight and balance, he turned away from me.

“Follow me.”

Without waiting for a reply, Arthur turned and began walking away towards the huge waterfall that thundered into the lake below.

“Where are we going?” I called, as the sound of the waterfall began to get louder and louder.

“Don’t ask questions,” Arthur replied, tossing a grin over his shoulder. “You’ll see.”

I blinked, then, and suddenly, inexplicably, we were on a beach in the middle of nowhere.

At this point, I wasn’t sure how much more confusion my poor little brain could take. Can brains explode from confusion? I felt like mine could.

“What? What is this place? How did we get here? Where are the trees? The waterfall?” The questions poured out of me, tripping over themselves as they all vied for dominance in my mind.

“This is the border of limbo,” Arthur said behind me. “It’s where the restless spirits live, the ones that have unfinished business in the real world.”

“Why are we here?”

“Because this is the only way you can get back to the real world.”

“And how do I do that?”

Arthur moved closer to me, a smile on his face.

“You have to swim beyond the horizon.”

My stomach turned over at the thought.

“I already told you, I can’t swim.”

“That’s all right. When the tide comes rushing in, you’ll learn quickly enough. Besides, you can’t drown here.”

“What?! I can’t – I can’t do that!”

Drowning aside, there were sharks in the sea. And sea monsters. And kraken. And God only knows what else. Even if it was the magical sea of limbo, or whatever they called it around here.

“It’s the only way.”

“Then maybe I’ve changed my mind! Maybe I don’t want to go back!”

A change came over Arthur then. His anger at my words seemed palpable, as though it had become the heat of the sun, rolling off him in waves. It was an inconvenient time to remember that he wasn’t human, not any more.

Mental note: don’t piss off spirits.

“You’d seriously piss this chance away?” Arthur’s voice was low and angry. “I would give anything to be able to go back and be there for my brother, and you would just – you would just give up?”

“But -”

“No, you don’t understand! I’m not just going to let you abandon him! He can’t lose anyone else! It’s not fair!”

“Please. You can’t do that to him.”

The more I thought about it, the more I knew that what Arthur said was true. I couldn’t do that to Jamie, nor could I leave Susie alone. Even if Susie hated me for the rest of her life, I couldn’t take that choice away from her by being selfish.

“Okay, okay… I know you’re right. I just… I just panicked.”

Arthur nodded after a moment, and his calm expression trembled for a moment as I looked at him.

“Thank you,” he whispered.

Then, looking around nervously, he took my hand and leant up on tiptoes to whisper in my ear.

“There’s another spirit here who has unfinished business with you, Gabriel. You ought to watch your back.”

I froze, chest constricting, heart pounding… but Arthur merely pulled back, as though he hadn’t said a word.

Were those dreams of James Frank really dreams at all?

Or was this a mere dream too?

“Take care of my brother, all right?” Arthur said softly, and I nodded and promised that I would.

“So… do I swim now?”

“Don’t worry, we’ll wait until the tide comes in. It’ll be easier.”

We lapsed into silence again and fished once more. Thoughts and worries were chasing each other around and around in my mind. Logically, I knew that this couldn’t be real, that it was just a dream and, therefore, the lingering threat of James Frank couldn’t be real either.

But it certainly felt real.

And what if it was?

The ocean swallowed me up and I sank back down into the abyss.

***


I woke slowly, wrapped in white starched sheets.

Everything ached and my head felt fuzzy, as though it had been filled with cotton wool. As I woke up more and more, the ache in my stomach intensified; it was like someone had taken a sledgehammer to my body, and been none too gentle about it either.

“Ah,” a voice said. “You’re awake. No, don’t try to move – you’ll rip out all of your stitches.”

“What happened?” I asked with a voice that sounded weak and scratchy. My mouth was horribly dry and I attempted to wet my lips. “Water?”

“I’m afraid that’s not possible right now,” the voice said. “Your digestive system has been severely compromised by the bullet. In fact, you’re lucky to be alive right now, Mr Nesaren. The surgeons performed a miracle on you.”

I tried to let that sink in, but it was hard to wrap my head around. The voice explained that I was currently being fed through a bag and there were other bags that were being used to collect my bodily waste. I was kind of relieved when he told me this, as I really didn’t think I would be able to muster the strength to move if nature came calling. He told me that I was on strong pain killers which would make me rather drowsy. Even as he said the words, I felt tired.

Despite how grim everything sounded right then, the voice was confident I would make a full recovery. I wasn’t out of the danger zone yet, not by a long shot, but I had survived surgery.

And that, he said, was the first step.

“Excuse me,” I mumbled, after I had caught him at a pause in his reel of medical jargon (most of which was going straight over my head – I was just happy to be alive). “But… who are you?”

“Ah, yes… of course. Allow me to introduce myself. I’m Dr Rain, and I’ve been assigned your case. You’ll be seeing a lot more of me over the next few weeks.”

I nodded politely, but my attention had wandered again. Where was Jamie? And Susie?

“Have I had any visitors?” I asked softly. Even as I asked the question, I felt my eyelids getting heavy again. I knew I didn’t have much longer before the drugs Dr Rain had described somewhere in his speech put me back under.

“No visitors.”

His words were the last think I heard before the drugs carried me back off into the blackness.

***

The next time I woke up, Jamie was there. He had fallen asleep on the rather uncomfortable looking hospital bench at the end of my bed. I was thankful to see that he was all right – there had been a part of me, when that last gunshot had gone off, that had assumed Jamie had died.

As though he could tell I was watching him, Jamie opened his eyes.

“Gabe…?”

He raised himself slowly up on his arm.

“How are you feeling?”

“Like an elephant stepped on me,” I admitted, and he managed a shadow of a smile.

It hurt to see him so despondant, so I asked him, “How’s home? How is Susie?”

Jamie looked down at the pattern on the sofa for a long moment, before peeking up at me through his fringe. My heart flip-flopped with anxiety; were things really that bad at home?

“I haven’t been home,” Jamie said softly after a moment. “I… I came straight here after… after the police released me.”

I tried to sit up, but a sudden stabbing pain in my stomach thwarted that attempt.

“Come over here,” I forced out, breathless from pain. “Talk to me.”

When Jamie had settled in the chair beside my bed, I asked softly, “What happened?”

“I shot Claude. I mean… I don’t know if I meant to, or what happened, just… suddenly, the gun went off and he was… he was sprawled on the floor with half his head missing.”

I sucked in a sudden, involuntary breath, glad I hadn’t seen that, but sad that Jamie had.

“And the police arrested you?”

Jamie bobbed his head in a nod.

“The past few days… I wanted to visit you, Gabe, but they locked me up. Claude is – was – an influential man from a rich family. They didn’t want it to seem like they were just doing nothing.”

“But… it was an accident.”

“That doesn’t matter. Even if they had believed me, I’d have still been up for manslaughter at the very least.”

“But… they let you go?”

“Claude’s parents didn’t want the scandal, so they got the police to drop the charges. The official story is that Claude died in a hunting accident.”

I thought that strangely appropriate, but didn’t comment on it. It was not the moment for jokes.

“That’s good, right? We can forget about him?”

Jamie rested his head on his arms, hugging himself.

“I don’t know if I can ever forget, Gabe. His head…”

I wanted to reach out and comfort him, but my arm was held down by tubes. Instead, I twitched my fingers in sympathy, ineffectual though it was.

“It grows easier,” I said softer. “But, you’re right… it’ll never truly go away.”

Jamie hugged himself tighter and started to sob. I couldn’t comfort him, barely being able to move, and I didn’t know what to say to make his hurt go away.

“Jenna,” Jamie whispered tearfully after a moment. “Jenna will never want me now.”

At that, he broke down into a fresh wave of tears, and all I could do was watch him cry. I said nothing. There were no words I could offer him that didn’t feel fake and shallow.

We sat there in silence whilst he cried, and my heart slowly started to crumble. I knew nothing could ever be the same again.

***

During the few months I was in hospital, Susie didn’t visit.

There was one time where I thought she had, but I was deep in a violent fever at the time and any images were snatched as though from a half-remembered dream. I convinced myself after a while that it was only a blonde nurse, that my fevered mind had somehow morphed her into Susie in an attempt to soothe my heart. After a while, it became less painful to believe that she had never tried to visit me at all.

After all, if she had visited whilst I lay dying… what had she seen – what had she decided – that meant she never came back?

***

The time came when I was well enough to go home, though I was still hooked up to a food bag on Dr Rain’s orders. Though I was confined to my bed most of the time, I felt a lot more lucid than I had during my time at hospital. It was odd. I was, well… happy to be home. I wasn’t sure when I had begun to think of this house as my home, but I knew Susie and Jamie had a lot to do with it.

Now that I was home, I learnt that Susie had been living here with Jamie in my absence. Now that I was back, Susie moved out and in with her bandmate, Sugar. It hurt that she didn’t even come in to check how I was doing, or say goodbye, even, but I knew I deserved it.

She still came by to clean and make sure Jamie ate, though she gave the bedroom a wide berth. I’d hear her footsteps sometimes come all the way up to the door, as though she was debating coming in. But they would always pause, hesitate… and then turn and walk away.

“I just don’t know what to do, Jamie,” I heard her say one day.

Her voice, though muffled by the heavy wooden door that cut me off from the rest of the house, was the most amazing thing I had heard in a long time.

Jamie must have replied, because she added, “I don’t know. Some days I want to go in there and strangle him, others… others I just want to forgive him.”

My heart leapt a little at the thought she had even considered forgiving me.

“No, Jamie… I can’t face him just yet. It still hurts too much.”

A pause.

“I know he’s hurting too, but I can’t. I’m sorry.”

Susie sounded weary, as though they had trodden this same conversation before. There was a slight pause, and I guessed that Jamie was speaking.

“Seriously, that cow had better be glad she decided not to show her face around here again. But he still did it. He’s still to blame, not just… her.”

I could bear it no longer.

“Jamie?” I called, making my voice sleepy as though I’d just woken up; I didn’t want them to know I’d been listening. “Jamie?”

The door opened and Jamie stepped in.

“Are you okay?” he asked softly. “Do you need anything?”

I shook my head.

“Susie… is Susie here?”

Jamie looked pained at that, but shook his head quietly.

“No, she isn’t here. Go back to sleep, Gabe. You need to rest.”

I nodded wordlessly, my eyes stinging. Jamie grimaced and turned quickly away; I could tell that it hurt him to lie to me like that.

Luckily, I managed to wait until the door was shut once more before I began to cry.

***

Jamie still attended school, as well as tending to me, cooking meals and attempting to keep up with all the garden chores. At the same time, he was also drifting further and further away from me, withdrawing into himself and shutting himself in his room for hours on end. I knew that he was still hurting over Jenna, unable to contact her and find any kind of closure. On top of that, Claude was weighing heavily on his mind. I could see it in his eyes; he was reliving the man’s death over and over again in his head.

Nothing I could say to him could help. It was as though he had built a wall and I couldn’t knock it down, no matter how hard I tried.

At night, though, Jamie’s defences collapsed, and he would often crawl into bed with me. He never came under the covers (I think he was scared of rolling on me and hurting my wound), but he curled up on top of the duvet, often fully dressed. When the nights were cold, he would bring a blanket and huddle quietly under that.

“I miss her, Gabe,” he would tell me under the safety of darkness, when he could pretend I was asleep. “She was the only friend I’ve ever had.”

“I know,” I would whisper, but he would pretend he hadn’t heard.

***

One day, Isaac Dream came to visit.

And he wasn’t happy.

“I can’t believe you,” he said, his tone disgusted. “You had the most beautiful girl in the world, and then you pissed it all away for one night with some whore.”

I was taken aback by this sudden, blunt attack and, on reflex, tried to defend myself.

“I never meant for it to happen. I love Susie.”

Isaac continued as though I hadn’t spoken.

“You know what the really fucked up thing is? She still loves you.”

Hope flickered to life in my chest.

“She… she does?”

“Of course she does, you idiot.”

“I kissed her,” he said bluntly, glaring at me as though he dared me to say something about it – I didn’t. “After our last gig. But she pushed me away, told me she was still a married woman and that her heart still belonged to you.”

“I -“

“Shut up!”

I shut up.

“How the fuck could you hurt her? Huh? What the hell were you thinking, when she loves you that much?”

I closed my eyes, feeling my face flush with shame.

“I… I wasn’t thinking.” My voice wobbled.

“You’re an idiot,” Isaac said, shaking his head. “But at least you know you’re an idiot.”

“Definitely,” I mumbled.

Isaac sighed, shutting his eyes for a moment before looking back at me.

“You get better, you hear me? You’d better not leave Susie all alone.”

“I won’t, I promise.”

Isaac gave me a brief, curt nod, and then turned to leave.

“Hey, Isaac…”

He turned and looked at me again.

“What?”

I managed a smile.

“Thank you for coming to see me.”

He shook his head and flapped a hand at me, but I caught a glimpse of a smile on his lips before he walked out of the door. I settled back down, clutching the grain of hope he had given me close to my heart.

Susie still loved me.

***

Time passed. I didn’t even know the date any more. Each day was like the one that preceded it and the one that preceded that.

But then, one day, Jamie snapped.

“I can’t take it any more!” he shouted, startling me awake as he stalked into the room. “I’m not going to school ever again!”

“Hey, calm down.” I tried to raise myself up on my elbows, and sort of managed it. “Take a breath. What happened?”

“I’m not going! Do you know how hard it is to sit through classes when everyone thinks you’re a murderer?! I thought it’d get better after a few weeks, that they’d all just get bored- but they’re just getting worse!”

I suddenly felt rather cold.

“I thought the charges had been dropped.”

“They were, but not before everyone somehow found out. And they know they were only dropped to avoid scandal.”

“How do they know?”

“Some of them have dads in the police, and I guess… I don’t know, I guess their dads told them. The police didn’t seem to happy to let me go, anyway.”

“Oh, Jamie… why didn’t you tell me this before?”

“I wanted you to get better without worrying about me,” he said tearfully. “But… but now… they’re saying I’m the reason Jenna left. That she had to flee to get away from me. That I’d gone all psycho crazy stalker on her.”

I didn’t know what to say. I knew that kids could be cruel – hell, I grew up in an orphanage – but I was seriously shocked by what Jamie was saying.

“The – the worst part is – Jenna knows. Her friends sent her a bunch of texts as soon as someone mentioned that theory. She’s going to hate me forever, Gabe!”

“She might not believe her friends,” I said, trying to lift his spirits a little.

“What reason does she have not to?” he asked me, but, for that, I had no answer.

***

The day of my twentieth birthday dawned with little fanfare. Susie still had not visited me and I was fast starting to lose hope again, so I was in no mood for celebrating. Jamie presented me in the morning with a handmade card, before rushing off on the school bus. Despite his rant to me, he hadn’t stopped going to school. I would have quite happily pulled him out, but he decided, in the end, that he didn’t want Jenna’s tutoring of him to go to waste. He wanted to graduate, and I was proud of him.

Despite not wanting to celebrate, I did have one very unexpected visitor.

“You’re looking better than I expected,” Molly Moss told me as she let herself into the bedroom.

I could hear Susie bustling around cleaning outside, and I knew she had let her mother in.

“Mrs Moss! I… I’m sorry for everything.”

She brushed away my apology.

“Save it for my daughter. She’s the one that really needs to hear those words.”

“Yes, ma’am,” I said softly. I just wished that Susie would give me the chance.

“Anyway, I’m not here about that,” she said, as she sat down on the chair next to my bed. Her blue eyes looked at me sharply. “Though, if you ever hurt my daughter again, I won’t stop my husband from coming in here and shooting you himself. Am I clear?”

“Yes,” I squeaked.

“Good. Now… what I’m here about… Susie told me about your mother.”

I nodded, but didn’t speak. Suddenly, I felt a rather horrible creeping dread.

“Well, Seeley tracked her down and told her about you getting shot. We thought she might want to see you one last time – this was before we knew you were going to live, of course.”

My mouth went dry.

“Wh-what did she say?”

“She told Seeley that she didn’t have a son, apart from the ones she has with her husband now.”

My heart sank. For a moment, I had dared to hope that my mother loved me, in her own way.

Just for one moment.

“So… although Seeley and I are very disappointed in you right now, Gabriel… I know you love our daughter, and you make her happy. On your wedding day… I hadn’t seen her smile that much for years. She loves you, and I think she’ll forgive you eventually. You’ll have to work hard, though.”

“I’ll do whatever it takes,” I told her, and I knew the words were the truth.

“Good to hear it. Now, listen, Gabriel… you and Jamie are part of the Moss family now, and we look after family. If there’s anything the two of you need, you let me know. All right?”

I was taken aback at her kind words. I had assumed that Mr and Mrs Moss would hate me forever for what I had done to their daughter.

“Thank you,” I mumbled. “Thank you so much.”

She waved away my thank you with a smile.

“Hey, meeting with your mother got even Seeley back in your corner. He was all ready to come down here and gut you before he had his little chat with her.”

“Er…”

“Oh, and I left a box of cookies on the side for Jamie. Hand baked.” She winked at me, and I couldn’t help but smile a little back.

After we had talked for a long while, just generally chatting about how I was and how Jamie was, and a little bit about how Susie was, Molly stood up to leave. Before she reached the door, she turned back and gave me a smile.

“Happy birthday, Gabriel.”

“Thank you,” I told her and, after she’d gone, my heart felt a little lighter.

***

It’s been a week since then, and I’ve finally caught up with myself. Susie still hasn’t visited me, but yesterday she slid a late birthday card under the door of my room. I’m finally allowed to eat again, though not too much and not too fast, and the distance I can walk is growing better every day.

I live in hope that one day soon, Susie will walk through the door and we can start again.

Because… if I don’t believe that, what do I have to believe in?

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  1. Okay tears don’t seem to be stopping but I’m going to try and comment. -sniffles-

    Jaaaammmmmiiiiieeeee…. ToT I feel so horrible for him. Claude coming back and he thinking it was his fault Jenna went away… -huggles- And Claude and the gun…. -whining noise-

    And poor Susie… I hope she can forgive Gabe. T-T Please let her forgive him… And I started sobbing when her mum came by… and also Issac… Mr. Rain as a doctor made me smile a bit.

    And now onto Gabriel. I feel soooooo horrible for him. I just wants to smoother him with loves and tell him everything will be okay. I feel so awful for him and the whole Limbo thing was awesome to see though I am scared about James Frank getting him through that… P.P I want Gabriel to get better soon. And for Susie to forgive him. And Kami not to be pregnant because that would just ruin both of them…

    -sobbing again- And now I want to read it again, even if it puts me thought the torched of tears. Such an amazing chapter Emy…

    • Emy

      Awww, I’m sorry I made you cry so much!

      I felt horrible for Jamie too, but at least now Deeds has a lot of material to work with. Poor Jamie.

      Gabe’s going to have to work very hard for Susie to forgive him. With something like that, it shouldn’t be easy, even if it wasn’t entirely his fault. It’s still his mistake and he needs to deal with the consequences. And he knows that and will grow from it. :)

      Thank you. I’m glad you enjoyed it! <3

  2. Poor, poor Jamie. D: I’m glad it was Claude with his head blown off instead of Jamie, though. And I feel badly for poor Arthur too…waiting around helplessly trying to see that his brother is all right. Sad.

    Loved the visits from Isaac and Molly! They are so awesome. All the scenery pictures were gorgeous, and your staging was fantastic. And yay, Dr. Rain! Haha loved that.

    • Emy

      I’d fear for my life if I killed Jamie, haha. He has quite the following! But yeah, Arthur can’t move on from limbo because he can’t let go of Jamie. It’s very sad. I thought that, because he was so protective of his brother in real life, he wouldn’t be able to move on because he’d want to protect him still.

      Dr Rain was fun. Travis looks GOOD in that doctor outfit. I wouldn’t want the real Tracis anywhere near my internal organs though. XD

      Thank you so much!! I enjoyed staging this chapter a lot! :)

  3. Oh man. I’m sitting here crying. That last line was a tear-jerker. Poor Gabriel. He’s been through hell more than once. I completely understand Susie’s reaction, but I want her to give in and see him so bad! Throw the guy a bone!

    And poor Jamie. That kid is so strong to keep going even when everyone hates him and his only friend is gone. Those awful kids at school don’t know anything! I hope they all get wedgies and die…ok, joking…but not really.

    Wonderful Emy. I really can’t wait to read the conclusion to this generation.

    • Emy

      He cuts a pretty pathetic figure, doesn’t he? Poor guy. He’s definitely paying for his mistake. Susie still loves him, but she can’t bring herself to forgive him just yet. I think she thinks if she sees him, she’ll crumble. But yes… she needs to see him, at least.

      Kids can be so cruel, as Gabe said. Jamie doesn’t want to waste all the tutoring Jenna gave him, and he doesn’t want to let the other kids win. It’d be so much easier to give up, but he’s never been one to just give up. He has the loser trait, so I’m always getting pop ups about him being shoved into lockers and things. Poor guy.

      Thank you!! There’s still a few chapters left before then. <3

  4. TRAVIS! TRAVIS, TRAVIS, TRAVIS! I <3 my Travis. I love my Travis. *Ahem* sorry, I haven't seen him for a while. (Shut up! LoL) You had me crying this entire update. Starting with of course Travis – seriously I was laughing and crying at the same time. Susie not visiting him broke my heart soooo much. And poor Jamie. I wanted to shout: "GO TO BRIDGEPORT!" Then Mrs. Moss coming to talk to him, I smiled. I liked the chat, though I am severely disappointed that Seeley didn't barge in and had to have Mrs. Moss stop him. (Is it bad that I really can't remember her name, sorry Toast and Cait). That would have been awesome, and the Susie having to drag him out but not looking at him – could have been painful but really awesome. I still hope that Seeley will at least have another *talk* with him before Susie and him talk. Okay, anyways GREAT UPDATE! And again I must scream – TRAVIS! (Drools on my computer.) Too many hot guys in one update FYI.

    • Emy

      I completely forgot to link to you, I’m sorry! Fixed now. I’m so glad you enjoyed seeing him, haha. I was hoping you’d enjoy that! :D

      Her name is Molly. :D MOLLY MOSS. It always makes me laugh, I don’t know why.

      Seeley might come and talk to Gabe, I’m not sure. Depends if Cait thinks he would be able to restrain himself from gutting the poor boy. XD

      Susie did come and see him when they thought he was dying, but he doesn’t want to think that was her. Hopefully she’ll visit him soon.

      What? Too many hot guys? THERE CAN NEVER BE TOO MANY!

      Thank you!! <3

      • I personally can see Seeley hold back a little – maybe. Maybe a smack on the back of the head, or a couple. No serious harm. Maybe a, “You’re lucky you were shot, cause I would have shot you myself. Remember what I said about Vincent Mason being a puppy.” ;-)

  5. Serenity

    First of all, that was an amazing chapter, it had me crying, especially the last line.

    I completely understand Susie’s reaction, but I really hope she forgives Gabe soon. But only time will tell. Gabe’s been through a lot, he deserves another chance. And I think it’s really sweet how Susie rejected Isaac’s kiss, even after everything Gabe told her.

    Looking forward to the conclusion to, I love how spaced out and detailed the storyline is. :D

    • Emy

      Awww, thank you. <3

      I think Gabe definitely deserves a second chance. People make mistakes, and they learn from them. It's a mistake he won't make again. And yeah, Susie still loves Gabe and she's still married to him. She's not going to cheat on him… even if Isaac is really rather attractive. XD

      The conclusion won't be for a few chapters yet, but I hope you enjoy it when it comes! <3 Thanks again. ^^

  6. dot823

    I thought you were going to kill him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I would do like, 3 more lines of those but…nah.)

    I still think my simself should show up and comfort poor Jamie. and have his babeh. I love gingers. :P

    • Emy

      Aww, I’d never kill him. I think you and Ross would guy me. And Deeds. And, like, everyone.

      Lmao. Maybe I’ll download your simself and show you what a you/Jamie baby would look like, haha. ;)

      Thank you. ^^ <3

  7. Poor Gabe! And Jamie! And Susie! :( What a glorious tear-jerker of a chapter. It was so awful at the beginning when Claudio was there–yikes. All of the hospital scenes were amazing, and limbo–wow. I feel bad for poor Arthur, too, but I’m glad he yelled at Gabe and got him going back. He was right, Jamie shouldn’t lose anyone else.

    Those kids at Jamie’s school are awful, but I’m proud of him for sticking it through to graduate. Good for him. I do like HRootbeer’s suggestion of death wedgies, though. I’m not joking so much, though. Grr–protect Jamie!

    I loved Molly’s visit with Gabe! That was sweet, and I’m glad to hear that they are on his side. :) What a wonderful chapter. <3

    • Emy

      Poor everyone! Except Claude. >:(

      I’m glad you enjoyed limbo. I had fun with that, and it’ll be important later in the story. :) Yeah, Arthur put Gabe in his place, haha. He’s not as much of a pushover as Jamie is, that’s for sure!

      Death wedgies!! Jenna! Come and protect your man’s honour! Brandie has spoken!!!

      Molly more than Seeley, I think. But jeez, a visit with Gabe’s mum would put anyone on his side.

      Thank you!! <3

  8. MY JAMIE!!! D:

    I love him so much ;_; I hate seeing how much Jenna’s leaving him has torn him up! That poor boy has gone through so much pain and heartache and I feel kinda bitchy now T_T And then the scene with Claude! I got shivers. Seriously. CHILLS!!! I wanted to like… jump into the computer, rush into the scene, and save both of them even though I knew how this chapter was going to go. Gosh woman. D:

    And then GABRIEL! I loved every single scene with him in it. The writing in this chapter was phenomenal and I really got a sense of everything that Gabe is going through. Like the whole Arthur bit? Gosh that was creepy and I could empathize with Gabriel 100% on the weird-factor. Man-oh-man! I just want MORE. And I want Susie to forgive him. We NEED bebehs! Preferably SuisexGabriel babies and not KamixGabriel babies kthnxplz. Ahh, I love your writing. Seriously. Now I must hurry up and write MY update ^^

    • Emy

      I know! ;_; But I’m sure Jenna didn’t mean to cause him that much pain, and how was she to know about the crazed gunman? Poor guy. I’m looking forward to seeing Jenna’s reaction to hearing (the heavily edited in Claude’s favour version of) what happened. Write! *whips* <3

      Aww, thank you so much!! Gabe is going through a lot, and it was hard to write without it coming across as him just being… emo. XD

      Limbo is quite creepy, isn't it? It was definitely weird for Gabe, haha. But he isn't sure if it was a dream or real, so… we'll see what happens with that.

      Gabe babies! :D I just hope their genetics won't merge and do horrible horrible things. XD

      Thank you, Deeeds. <3 <3

  9. Jedidiah

    Emy, I want to have your writing talents when I grow up. :D
    First of all, I’m glad that all three of them are alive and okay. Ahh… when I saw that Claude dude, I remembered that’s the sicko that hurt Jamie! I was so proud to see both Gabe and Jamie become more assertive, I guess adrenaline helps, but it was also time for Jamie to face his past…I think.

    Yeah, better Gabe come back to life…leaving Susie behind with those last words would have been so cruel. Double whoop whoop for Arthur. I really enjoy the brother’s connection, although it’s a bit sad to see Arthur not able to move on even for his brother’s sake.

    Mrs. Moss is such a mom. :) Gotta love the Moss family. Susie surely has a tough road ahead of her, forgiving Gabe. That sort of betrayal cuts deep. And Gabe really has to prove himself. I’m keen to see how you handle that topic. But from I can see you can do, it will be stunning.
    *standing ovation for Emy*

    • Emy

      Aw, Jed. <3

      Yeah, I think Jamie needed to face his past. And now he's done that, he can move forward into the future. :) When he gets through his guilt and all that.

      And thankfully no one died. Well, no one we like, anyway. ;)

      It is sad Arthur can't move on, but, on the other hand, I find it really sweet that he hasn't. He wants to protect Jamie to the best of his abilities, even if it means he can't find peace. Also, Gabe needed a bit of a butt kicking.

      I love Molly, she's so great. <3

      Gabriel certainly does have to prove himself. I hope that I do it well, and realistic as well. Forgiving someone for cheating, and being forgiven, is hard. But not impossible, if you both work at it. Though, if it had been an extended thing where he'd sneaked around for months… I don't think she would be able to forgive him. But then, it was their wedding night. I'm sure I'll manage it somehow. XD Getting it well written and realistic is my goal!

      Thank you, Jed! It's always a pleasure to read your comments! <3

  10. Wow!! Everything about this chapter was amazing! I was so surprised that Claude was the shooter…I had thought he was part of the past and didn’t expect to see him again. The limbo scenes were awesome and creepy! Loved the walking on water part and also seeing Arthur! At first I thought Jamie was dead too until Gabe described him as different. I really hope Susie comes around and forgives Gabe. I do like how you’ve brought other characters in like Isaac and Molly to let us know that Susie still loves Gabe. It was fun to see Travis Rain as a doctor also! Now, that’s a scary thought!! Fantastic chapter!

    • Emy

      He’d threatened that Jamie would never be able to escape and he’d pay his debt, one was or another. Claude’s not the type to give empty threats, so I’d always planned on having him show up again.

      Limbo was a lot of fun. I enjoyed staging it a lot. :D It’ll be significant later on, though Gabe thinks it’s a dream.

      Susie just needed some time away from it all to think about things, I think. Which is understandable. Isaac’s incredibly frustrated that Susie still loves Gabe, but at the same time he’s happy for them. He’s a tough guy with a soft heart. And, of course, Molly’s just the maternal sort. She doesn’t trust Gabe and Jamie to be able to feed themselves.

      On top of that, I didn’t want the chapter to just be Gabe whining. He needed some hope, bless him.

      Travis Rain as a doctor is a terrifying thought, bless his soul. XD

      Thank you! <3

  11. May I give Jamie hugs? Many many hugs? Cause I’m going to, regardless. Poor bb. GABE! Oh geez, I thought he died or something, and a Kami/Gabe baby would take over. But there is no Kami/Gabe baby, right? RIGHT?!?!? Great chappie!

    • Emy

      You’re allowed to give him hugs. He needs them. <3

      And nope, Gabe's still alive and kicking and it'll be his gen for a while yet. ;)

      Thank you!! <3

  12. Once again you have stunned me with your pictures, and your prose. So sad, for all of them. I’m glad that Seeley came around to Gabe’s side, once he met his…”mother” (God, what an evil _itch ) The cruelty of children…you got that right. Poor Jamie, he can’t catch a break in this life.
    I’m hoping Susie can forgive Gabe, I would have trouble forgiving a cheater, but maybe almost losing someone, in such a final way makes you think about what is really important. It’s pretty obvious she still loves him.
    And of course I love the Rain cameo…hee hee. fan girl goes: “sigh”

    • Emy

      Awww, thank you. I’m glad you enjoyed both the pictures and the prose. <3

      Gabe's mother doesn't really deserve that title. -.- I like that you put it in quotes. And yeah, poor Jamie… he has the loser trait, so that doesn't help!!!

      I would have trouble forgiving a cheater too, but I think, if I was going to be cheated on, I'd prefer it was in the way Gabe cheated with Kami, rather than a long, drawn out, secretive affair. But maybe that's just me. But yes, I think almost losing him to death will have given Susie a hell of a lot to think about.

      I love the Rain cameo too. *fans self*

      Thank you! <3

  13. Dreamy Underwood

    o.O *foams at mouth* Molly’s Coookkiiiiiiieeees

    Also, Susie will come back and if she doesn’t. Well, Emy you will be getting a random, unsuspecting vist from me and hopeful some others.

    • Emy

      After Toast said she’d bribe Jamie over with cookies, I knew I had to include cookies, haha.

      D: D: Please don’t gut meeeee.

      Thank you. <3

  14. 6711 words and I didn’t want it to end!! SO. GOOD! I loved this, the dialogue is amazing, the beginning with Claude was so tense, I didn’t know if it was going to be Jamie or Gabe that got shot, and when Gabe was all pale and dying in Suzies arms – such a good photo! The entire chapter has amazing photos actually, I love them!
    Gabe’s time in limbo was also great, I’m glad Arthur persuaded him to go back to the real world, although what was that about someone not being too friendly in limbo, is Gabe going back there at some point?!
    I love his recovery as well, you’re so good at making a pretty mundane situation so interesting to read – I’m glad Molly forgave him, this means Suzie has too as well, surely. He told her about Kami for good reason, he could have always just kept it a secret… but then again I suppose he was dying. Please say she forgives him! She’d definitely coming around, putting the card under the door and such.
    Really, really great Emy. :D

    • Emy

      Awww, thank you!! I think this is actually my longest chapter yet, but it really didn’t feel that way whilst I was writing it. It came quite easily once I’d got going. And thank you! I was really pleased with the pictures I got for this chapter!!

      We’ll have to see about limbo. I know the answer, obviously, but saying anything either way would be telling. The unfriendly person will be important for a few generations to come, though. ;)

      Aww, thank you! I’m glad it was interesting to you! I was worried about not much actually happening in the last part of the chapter, but I think it needed it after how this chapter began.

      I think Susie’s coming around as well. I mean, Gabe made a huge mistake, but he’s only human after all. <3 <3

      Thanks again! <3

  15. It’s rare that I actually cry at an update but WOW
    The beginning was so dramatic
    The Harry Potter style limbo was brilliant
    Your characters are amazingly realistic
    and.. well…
    I guess you could say I loved it! Ahh this story is amazing. And we’re still in the first generation! ^__^ please don’t let Gabe’s story end!!

    • Emy

      Awww, Callie!! Thank you!! What a great compliment! :) <3

      Don't worry, we still have a while to travel with Gabe yet. There still hasn't been babies! :O

      Thanks again! <3

  16. Melanie Baker

    I had a pannic attack in the begining, then i fell of my seat, and finally, i curled up on the bed and sobbed my heart out… curses emy…
    I LOVED IT!!!!

    please susie… forgive him…

  17. Simply amazing!! Your blog is always worth the wait Emy. I can’t help but the best for last. I literally cried for Gabe and the pain he went through. It just broke my heart over and over. I knew Susie would take the news to heart and then him sleeping with Kami? Gabe! Why?! I thi k it was because he was caught up in the moment but still… That’s his wife, he was suppose to be faithful.

    Oh god as soon as I saw that Susie was tied up I knew it was Claude! He’s such a bastard! I’m glad Jamie blew his brains out (quite literally!) Even though Jamie will never feel the same, him and Gabe now have even More in common :/ Not the greatest two things in common though.

    Wonderful job Emy!!! I honestly can’t wait for more. :)

    -Sponge

    • Emy

      Sleeping with Kami is one of Gabe’s biggest regrets. We’ll get more into the other biggest regret more next chapter. Yay for flashbacks. :D I’m quite excited for the next chapter, actually, but I need Pets for what I have planned for the end of it.

      I’m sorry I made you cry!! I seem to have done that to a lot of people this chapter, though that wasn’t my intention. Gabe’s in a lot of pain, though, and I’m glad it came across.

      Ahaha, nothing gets past you, does it, Sponge? Claude is an evil evil man, and I’m glad he’s gone now. Poor Jamie, though. He’ll be all right. He’s a strong kid.

      And no… not the best two things to have in common at all. XD My poor sims.

      Thank you, Sponge! Always look forward to your comments. :) <3

      • Yea, and I could hear it in the way that he was talking that he regretted the fact that he did it. I just felt so bad for him the whole entire time. I wasn’t mad at Susie for her acting that way, and I wasn’t mad at Gabe for sleeping with Kami- A little disappointed in him though! :/ Oh, I can’t wait for you to make a new chapter! It was so hard for me to wait it through until yours came up next in my list of never ending stories (lol) I so excited for pets! It’s going to be SO awesome!!! I already have it pre-ordered. The first pet I’m getting for the Terrey’s is a horse XP And the first pet for Rained is probably a kitten. :) Yea. I’ll get Micki a cute little Kitten :D She’ll like having that company for things I have planned in her generation….

        Well, there has been tons of things you’ve got past me XD But I just had this GUT feeling it was him. It’s really the only person I could think of that would want to hurt them! D: Poor Susie and Jamie<3 Yea he's a strong kid, but *sigh* I hurt for his adorable little self.

        Yea! NOT the best! XD Poor guys.

        Aw really? :) That really made me smile to hear that from you Emy!<3<3<3

        And here is my more heavy worded comment that I really wanted to give in the first place! XD I was on an Ipod when I read your chapters, so it seems all over the place and short because it was too hard to type on it! Ha ha.

        Lots of love,
        Spongey<3<3 :)

        • Emy

          Ahaha, I know the feeling. I like to try and read in chronological order, though, because otherwise it’s just a bit chaotic. XD

          I’m excited for pets. :D I never had it for sims 2, and never for sims 1, so it’ll be a new experience for me (though I had a go on the sims 1 version). I don’t think the Dreams will get any pets for a little while (at least until next gen), but I have pets planned for Gabe. :D Well, a pet. ^^ And Mickie would be cute with a kitten.

          *shakes fist at Claude* Well, there’s James Frank, but he’s dead. ;)

          Thanks again! :) <3 <3

  18. <3 <3 T_T i love this generation so much. there has been so much drama and heartache. i'm really glad that suzie has stuck around even though gabe has so many skeletons in his closet. amazing job emy!

  19. Bia

    Your story is awesome. Your writing is awesome. Period. I’m SO hooked up in it, I can’t believe I didn’t find your blog before :)! Seriously, your characters are so believable, you describe their emotions so well…. And there’s so. much. drama ;-;! Poor Gabriel, poor Susie, but, most of all, poor Jamie…. When I read his interlude, I felt my stomach swirl with disgust and what disgusted me the most is that someone must have passed through the same….. I hate hate hate hate hate hate Claude and I’m glad he is dead, even tough his death is taking it’s toll on Jamie.

    I hope you continue updating the story and that this family remains as interesting as the first generation was ;)! What got me most interested was that it wasn’t the usual scheme: new guy/ girl, gets a job, difficult life at first, finds girl/ guy, marries the next day, has pretty babies, repeat for ten generations. The characters have a background, they have their demons, which they must haunt down, it has a story. Anyway, I’ve talked too much, just wanted to show my support and say that YOU ROCK :D!

    • Emy

      Awww, thank you so much!! This is such a lovely comment. <3

      I hate Claude too. I knew he had to die to provide Jamie and everyone with some closure on that front – Jamie will recover, he's a strong boy.

      I hope the other generations will be as interesting as this one. :D I have lots of things planned, so I hope you enjoy. ^_^

      Thanks again! Your comment made my day! <3

  20. Rad

    Awww, poor Gabe. It’s taken me a while to catch up but I’m glad I have. I love the characters in this story and can’t wait to see more.

    • Emy

      Thank you, Rad! I’m glad you love the characters – they’re my main focus, after all. :) Hopefully it won’t be that much longer until the next chapter. <3

  21. Wow … Honestly words cannot explain this chapter! Everything was so emotional and filled with action and suspense. Like many of your other comments state, the pictures are so realistic and well taken! Another very realistic branch would be the dialogue .. I absolutely love it. Your storyline is definitely one of the most unique and originals I’ve ever read before. I was wondering how you did all that scene in the beginning with the gun and shootings? (I understand if you rather not share your crazy, mastermind talents hehe)
    All in all, this chapter could have went on and on and I wouldn’t have minded!

    Auburn
    New chapter on my blog as well (finally) So if you’d like to check it out, it’s available!

    • Emy

      Awww, thank you so much!! :) <3

      As for how I did the scene at the beginning, I used pose player and some accessory guns. :) Nothing too complicated or secret, really. :D

      I'll check it out soon! :D <3

  22. Christie :D

    OMG!!!! love love love this!!!! Just re-read the chapter and I STILL think its EPIC!!!! You’re such a good writer, wish my story could be as good as yours.
    P.S where do you get all you cool cc and poses from? they would be like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO helpful to have in my sim stories!
    Love it and keep up the good work and posting! :D

    • Emy

      Awww, thank you. This is one of my favourite chapters I’ve ever written, so I’m glad you like it.

      I get most of my CC and poses from MySims3Blog. Check it out. They collect LOADS of things! :D

  23. I’m late to the party here, but your writing is incredible. I feel for everyone in this story, can’t wait to read more.

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